I don't know...

I don't know what to say or do because I just... Wouldn't know.

I've always tried to stay positive and think to myself that life might just turn around for me. But as life passes by, I begin to realise it's not like that. If you've been put down your whole life, a maggot like you will never turn into a butterfly. And so that's what I am. I'm one of those who will never turn into that something I wish for no matter how much I try. This place isn't where I belong. I keep wondering... Would life be different if I finally found the place where I should be? 

I don't know. But what I know for sure is that I do not belong here. And the people who I idolize, aren't the kind of people who'd even look at me even if I met them. I guess it's true, you learn every day. And I've learnt that the people who try to inspire others, will never help others.

They'll never get these people to try and reach the heights, becases the truth is, they don't actually care. They only say the things they do in order to satisfy themselves. To create the fake illusion that they've helped somebody when in fact, they haven't helped the people who've needed it. They've only made themselves feel good.

Kerli is the best example of all.
All smoke and no proof.